On Valentine's Day this year we had a followup ultrasound. Not the most romantic way to spend this holiday, but oh well. We met with our amazing ultrasound doctor again and she checked out all of Carina's measurements. She noticed that the fluid had, in fact, increased just as she thought. But the increase was not as much as she expected. This wasn't necessarily a good thing. It just meant that the natural process of things would be slow instead of quick. This meant that we could expect 'something to happen' in a few months rather than a few weeks. This news was a little hard to deal with at first. Originally we had been praying that God take her sooner rather than later, but I now realize that was a selfish prayer. His timing is perfect and He wanted us to hold on to her and get to know her. To feel her kick and to (hopefully) get to hold her and look at her alive.
Now our prayer is that we get to do those things. We are praying to have even two minutes with her after delivery. We know she probably won't make it to June--her due date--but whenever she greets this world, we're praying she's alive when she does.
We had a dedication for her this past Sunday at church. I will post separately about that because it deserves to have it's own post. It was such a special time for us and our church. Carina has already been touching our lives and others lives. I am thankful to have been chosen to carry her.
Kristin
I've got to say Kristin it really is an inspiration as to how you and Ken are putting it all out for everyone to see. I can't possibly imagine the depth of the hurt you've been experiencing but know that our hearts do ache for you as I prayers are with you. And I also wanted to say that you have an amazing ability as far as writing goes. God Bless
ReplyDeleteHey Kristin... I just wanted to shoot you this note to let you know we are praying for you guys and also to let you know about something that we just recently heard about. A good friend of ours is a photographer and just recently became involved in an organization called "Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep" http://www.nowilaymedowntosleep.org/
ReplyDeleteyou'll be able to read and know more from the website, but just quickly, it's an organization that offers remembrance photos for families who suffer the loss of a baby. I just glanced on their website to see if they have photographers in the area, and there are a couple, so if you're interested, it's available to you. Hope this is helpful. Love you guys and we're praying for you during these hard times.
Love - Shannon
Kristin, I was truly touched by Carina's dedication and I am praying for peace and comfort for everyone in your family. What a tremendously difficult thing to have to work through, and you are showing many what it means to have faith and to keep hope.
ReplyDeleteKristin, I'm signed on to follow your blog as "Simplicity Begins." Just so you know who that is.
ReplyDeleteWe were so thankful we could be in church with you the morning of Carina's dedication. Your song "I still believe" touched me deeply.
Blessings on you, Ken, and Autumn. Prayers continue, too.
Much love,
Barb (Ball)
Weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning! Psalm 30:5 What a wonderful promise our loving Father gives us! We are praying for you, Ken, Autumn and Carina.
ReplyDeleteWith love, Debbie & Ron Solanes